Sensitivity

I am not quite sure what to write but what i can be sure of is i am really eager to write when i am not in such a good mood. Sad, but true! Like a song title..

Again i am not sure why i use title 'sensitivity'.. well after i think about it later, it is sure related to what i am feeling right now. My sensitivity is extremely high today. I was touched by one of sad songs i heard on the radio and i wrote some of the lyrics via path which i couldn't have done in my normal mood.

Another thing is i actually cried over something that completely annoyed me in the office. Should be normal generally but it was not for me. I used to be able to control my feelings in the office. My place to cry is when i'm alone in the car or when i am at home with my small loving family.

Nevertheless, what was annoying me today has actually been annoyed me for several months. I hate to be in this situation and it seems whatever i choose to do is hurting me just the same. I mean, it is not really that painful, but it is something that makes you uncomfortable.

It is of course i think a personal thing. I mean this kind of thing may be not quite uncomfortable for anyone else. But for me it just is.

I do not really like to compete. I am not that kind of ambitious person. I am a supportive kind of person and i definitely like to be supported as well and appreciated.
But still i like to be acknowledged for what i have done, especially my good performance. And when my good performance is stolen, i am hurt because i just do not understand why they can do that to me.
Fairness and justice, sometimes i think i am just obsessed by those. But those things are good right?!

Oh no...now i don't know how to close this posting..usually i am good at that but now i am blank!
Well, i guess just to be continued....?